Idioglossia

It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me.

Face to the floor
Heart in my mouth
My forehead hits the pavement again, numb again
Sharing this humility
A circle of humanity
Momentarily black in me
Immomentarily black
So black.

(Memory) When outcome is preceded
(Leave me be) By an outlet that is needed
(Close that eye) We tend to forget all but the circle
(Leave love blind) As soon as the ends have met
As soon as the ends have met.

I scratch the surface and see
Someone better than me (I scratch the surface and see)
Where did I suffer that wound?
What was taken from me? (Where did I suffer that wound?)

As you walk through the ashes
Remember my name
As you walk through the ashes
As you walk through the ashes
Remember the shame
Whisper my name.

This blood proves me right
In that the last move is all that counts
If the beasts must bite
Vow to the floor
Oath to the taste of dust in my mouth
Never - I bite the words - never again
Will I let anyone else finish
I'll be the end of every way.

(Memory) Kneeling in whirlpools of pink champagne
(Let it die) Celebrating the bravery of my pain
(Left behind) Something broke
(Leave me blind) And no water could ever wash the anger from that first stain.

I scratched the surface to find
Someone wicked and blind (I scratched the surface to find)
Where did it come to that end?
Why can't these scars ever mend? (Where did it come to that end?)

(Memories) I have swallowed all these tears
(Memories) Thought they'd be gone after all these years
(Memories) Now this heart is waking up
(Memories) With a new hunger for my own blood.

As I search through the ashes
For someone to blame
I'm afraid to see my face
As I walk through the ashes
I whisper your name
Meeting you have forced me to meet myself.

It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me
It all comes back to me.

Face to the ground
Heart in their mouth
Foreheads hit the pavement again, numb again
Sharing my hostility
A streetful of insanity
This is payback for every
Tear in me, hole in me, black in me
Black!

(Memory) For every time you froze me out
(History) For every punch every shout
(Agony) For not believing in me, for your stupidity
(Hide from me) For stealing what could have been me
(That hideous Idioglossia that formed me)
(Hide from me that hideous Idioglossia that formed me)

Despite all these words
Not one could express
What I had inside
Living was to hide
It all comes back to you.